Love Cries Out A Certain Word

~~Follow your heart~~

If there's one thing I've learned..is that...nothing stays a secret for a long time. Any time soon ... that one little rumor,remark,response, or even lie could turn and literally hit u across the head. Maybe not all at the same time.. but in return... a lot of pain comes out of it. Not everything returns to you at the same time... but sooner or later...things get pretty ugly in a quick blink of an eye.
I can't assure you that things can actually change and become what is again .. nothing is that easy, but if you work towards it things can change but its all a matter of time and the perseverance you put into getting what you want. Things change slowly though. So don't rush the process of things... not many get to where they are with friends and other relationships by speeding by the moments you should be having to build up that climax.
When things unravel them selves my mistake was to not do anything and quickly tie up the bow again; I just let things fall into a bad place and blame myself later for all that's happened. If your wondering ... that doesn't feel to good ... things don't have to be all your fault if you start believing in it and start to think of facts that can back up your idea. With out those.....your nothing. But thing is .. i had proof that it wasn't "completely" my fault... still.. i did nothing. Stupid... eh? Some of you might say that you would've said something and backed yourself up...try actually being in that position...things aren't as easy as they seem..words are better spoken than done. But the words behind our actions is what makes them so special. Being in a spot where you have to testify against someone you really love.......your conscious yells out a certain word. Hope.
You need this once you've lost it...
but if you want to gain it back..... let me tell you it wasn't easy...
but .... wasn't isn't the word for me... its past tense..
and... i haven't gotten that far yet...
still don't have hope.

~~Follow your heart~~